Life's Journey.

These past few days have been stressful and exhausting and my plan of going back to Uni and not worrying about anything epic failed in a most spectacular fashion.

I *almost* got kicked out of my house for something I didn't do, but somehow managed to get out of it which I am 100% thankful and appreciative of. Now, all I have to do is worry about my housemate who is in a very similar situation.

Suprisingly, I've been back at Uni for three days and have not yet attended class, I had friends find out the info I needed though so I know whats going on - friends are win ;P.

I am feeling rather pensive right now, due to the fact that it's Sunny out, there is a nice breeze blowing and birds chirping too. It feels like a nice summer afternoon, all we need is a barbecue followed by some ice cream and a trip to the beach - all which are probably possible.

I'm trying my damnedest not to think about all the men involved in my life at the moment - those who have come and gone, those who are still lingering around, those of recent days and those who I actually feel for. It's damn hard though when you have time on your hands and nothing to fill it with.

Maybe I should allow myself time to think about it, sort it all out in my head, or maybe I should just get some rest, then have some fun and chillax with some friends. I just don't know how I should feel, and I wish someone else would tell me how they feel too, so maybe I could find a reaction that lets me know what to feel.

I guess I should just go with the flow and let whatever happens, happen. After all, it's not about the destination, it's about the journey.

What A Week!

You know, it's only been 9 days since my last post and it feels like forever. So much has happened since then, mainly in the past few days.

I had my first exam last week which went suprisingly well for having not revised and reading up on the books on sparknotes the night before. Ohh yeah look at me go :P. I also had an exam this morning, which I finished within the first hour and left as soon as I could. I'm currently in the Uni library waiting on all the other dudes to finish so we can go for lunch and do fun things.

My exams are now over and my coursework is basically done, I just have to print some stuff and then put the audio files on a disk and we'll be flying. This means I can come on Wednesday since I can hand in my coursework early. Yay, an extra day of tidying and preparing for the weekend. I'm having a party bisnatches, you know where it's at. If you want an invite, talk to me :P.

Now my exams are over and coursework's done, theres only one thing left for me to worry about. The disaplinary interview I have tomorrow morning, to do with the small fire that may have occured in my Uni house. Yeah, it's hilairous isn't it? I did laugh, but now I'm worried, I shall live, though possibly not in that house anymore (yeah, it's that serious!).

You know, only I could make it through the first semester with a broken bed, several hundred water fights, a formal warning for a party and a small fire in my house. You wanna try? Go for it. But trust me, the trouble and worrying definitely isn't worth it!

Kryptonite

Last night, in a drunken slumber, a friend and I were chatting endlessly about life, death and everything in between. We got onto the delightful topic of relationships and started spilling our guts and our hearts - or whats left of them rather.

We started using some rather strange sayings, that maybe not everyone will understand but the general idea is there and if you are really incompetent then google is your best friend.

He described one of his relationships with someone to be like Kryptonite. A relationship that is entirely bad for you, but you can't seem to escape it. It's always there, finding a way to wrap itself into your life and kill you small inches at a time. In the end though, superman always survives, so I guess the moral of the story is, we will survive that chip of Kryptonite that is injected into our skin regardless of the pain or the amount of time it's left inside us.

It made me realise, like superman's kryptonite and Edward Cullen's heroin, we all have our weaknesses. Be it a shiny green crystal, or a human girl. None of us are perfect, we're all flawed and scarred and all we're really trying to do is live. The world is one large screwed up place and all we can do is try to survive as best we can while fulfilling our own needs as well as deal with whatever life throws in our way.

None of us get out of this alive and when you think about it like that, it makes you wonder why you bother worrying and stressing out half the time. But we do it anyway, because we're only human and that's just how we work. I don't really know what my point is to be honest, I just feel that this needed to be said.

It brings to mind the Sunscreen song, which was actually a speech given to an alumni class but has been put to music by Baz Luhrman. If you're having one of those human days when you feel shitey about everything, I suggest you give this song a listen. It may or may not help, but I enjoy it so maybe it's worth a try, right?

Oh and, Happy 2009 my friends, may this year be better and brighter for all of us :)